Childhood memory

 Yesterday I did something super nice... After dinner I was got an urge for a sweet, but real real sweet.
 Then I decided to eat bread (after dinner it's hard right? But it was only half of it right? hehehe...) with condensed milk! Hehehe...
 What could be more childhood memories than that? That thing of eating and smearing? DELICIIIIIOUS... Okay it's not healthy...
 But it was too good... Kkkkk... I had to tell this prank... Do too guys... Hahaha... The belly grows a little but the taste of childhood is worth... Hehehe...

Opening my heart

Let me tell you something... I'm working well with the physical therapist who comes here at home, Chris... But you know... I'm quite concerned about my sleepy hand that so far not decided to move! Hahaha...

The leg came back very fast (about 15 days after surgery, the little fingers... okay... lol)... The arm is coming back... But no hand... Next week it's been 3 months of surgery, so I wonder how long it might take.

On my last visit to Dr. José Eduardo (neuro), he said he thinks my hand will move again...He only it could not predict when. He also thought that my recovery was good, after all, the tumor was quite large and if I understood a bit of neurology I would understand how complicated the surgery was... That I could not return from the surgery!

Commenting on this with Clau, she remembered a phrase I honestly can not remember... I think the brain erased... He was traumatized! Hahaha... She remembered that the doctor said I was lucky because if the tumor happened 2 years ago, I would not have treatment anywhere in the world! SCAAAAAAAAARING! LOL

Well... Unfortunately... I think my recovery meeeeeeeeega slow... Hehehe... My patience is coming to an end... Can anyone lend me some? Hahaha... If you have a good right hand spare, I buy it... lol

Oh, I'm saying a lot of trash... But it was to relieve the tension... Goodbye! J

Girls chat

Let's have girls chat now... lol… Boys are allowed…

Yesterday after months my period came (stopped because of chemotherapy) ... I became a lassie! Kkkk...

Well... So far so great because it is a sign that the body is returning to normal! YUPIIIIII!

But there was one fact that I think it is the end of the thread... Simply the fim of human dignity... Hahaha..... Visualize the scene: my mother and the nurse (at least she was a woman... lol) gluing together a night absorbent (by the way, it looks like a mini diaper because it is so long) on underwear for me!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA...

After that does anyone doubt that a person in my position must exercise humility? Hehehe…

Anyhow I've said that to develop qualities it is always good! Anyway... This was just another exercise that I wanted to share with you... lol

Jaguar

I thought they would scribble me once... kkkk... I was wrong!

This week I did a new simulation because in the last 5 sessions of radiotherapy, the area to be radiated will be reduced... Or rather, it will be more accurate... Right upon where the tumor was.

So.... They scribbled me again... I think the guy liked me... This time he used a pen that doesn’t erase... hahahaha... He scribbled me on Wednesday and the ink has not vanished completely yet... hahahaha... I'm taking showers, guys! Hahaha....

 And he also made two more dots (tattoo) to mark the key points... I'm becoming a jaguar... kkkkk..... Will I get into the program to protect endangered animals? Hahahhahaha....

Beef!

There is one funny thing that I forgot to tell in the last post!
One day before starting to do radiotherapy, it is necessary to simulate the process and the do appropriate markings.... Well, on this occasion they measure all proportions, take x-ray spots, determinate the best device to be used and everything... Everything is measured thorougly and SCRAWLED!!!!!
Yeah! Scrwaled... They delineate the site to be irradiated with a pen and mark reference points with tattoo (they are only two dots)... kkkk.... Now I'm all drawn... Like a beef! Hahahahaha... Nothing more is missing in life... lol

Like a mummy

Yesterday I went to the hospital and Doc Wesley required the drain to be removed... Despite the drain was still plenty of fluids, my little body was already expelling the tube and it was hurting and aching...

I’m free of the drain! When I was taking off the drain I was impressed because there was at least 20 cm of tube inside the skin! But it doesn’t hurt to take off the tube!

After I removed the drain they bandaged me... Take a look, that’s funny....

I'm a little mummy right? hahahahaha....

Details: I can not dampen these bandages in 3 days.... In other words.... I'm looking like a mummy and in a few days I'll be smelling like a mummy....... kkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

Postsurgical

Today has been a week since I had the surgery!

I went up to the surgery center at 6:30 pm and went down again to my room at 1:30 am… I went back wearing sexy 7/8 socks..... Look how beautiful.... hahahahaha.... It is elastic socks against thrombosis... lol

The shoulder blades and back hurt a lot because of the position on the operating table... Yeah, I was like Jesus Christ on the cross... But my luck is that He was there by my side and I came into this life... hahaha... You're not rid of me guys! hehehe....

I'm still with the drain, which is what really bothers me.... but all right, because the surgery was a success: only one quadrant and the lymph nodes were removed... The prosthesis was maintained... The operated breast that was is a little higher and bended to the side.... kkkkkkkkkkkkk.... I am cockeyed.... kkkkk.... I’m kidding it is not so noticeable.... But this will be fixed in plastic surgery... hahahahaha....

On Monday I went to the hospital to check the bandages and everything is fine too!

The orientation is that I move my arms (not above the shoulder line and wide open with arm) so I do not get the a swollen arm.... kkkkkkk ... Think! Visualize me with A sailor Popeye arm... kkkkkk..... I don’t accept!

Surgery TODAY!

Hummmm.... So... hehehe.... Yesterday Doc. Wesley informed me that I would be operated at 7 pm today.... hehehe ....

The nodule in the liver was nothing serious.... It was not fat, but it was not anything malicious... As he said, nothing in medicine is 100%, but it was discussed at lot... And the node will be monitored.

Well... Today I had breakfast and went down to the needling and markings for surgery.

I returned to my room just now... And in two hours will go to the operating room!

Needling section is not a cool thing... hahahaha.... Do you happen to know that a steel wire is placed in me? Hahahaha... Does the titties are so fallen that can only be raised with steel wire? kkkkkkk.....

And not only that! hahaha.... As a toast you win injection of t things into the tumor.... Injection of things around the tumor... And you also get a painting on the skin where it is the sentinel lymph node! hahahahaha....

The surgery should take about 3 hours... So.... Once I get back and I’m able to hit the keys on the notebook, I promise I update the blog again!

Help at mealtimes

When I started treatment, a large question mark hung over the food issue... Because I did not know if I could eat everything or not... How should I feed... Or if there was some kind of restriction.

In addition to the medical guidelines, another important aid was the book "Comida Que Cuida” (Food That takes care) from Sanofi-Aventis that was created in partnership with the Hospital AC Camargo professionals.

This book explains a lot of things and give many tips and delicious recipes!!!

On the Sanofi-Aventis website there is the COLEÇÃO COMIDA QUE CUIDA (COLLECTION FOOD THAT TAKES CARE) for people with cancer, diabetes and heart problems.

"In November 2009,  this Collection was awarded with the 2008 Golden Magnifier - Sustainability Category. The award is a recognition of the importance of the book for patients, health professionals and hospitals throughout the country."

http://www.sanofi-aventis.com.br/live/br/pt/layout.jsp?scat=69786EB2-C23D-43EE-8716-FF7E23D8614B

I have no idea if there is something like that at the international website. The books are in portuguese.

This is an important aid and an affection that can make a difference in delicate moments... Therefore, access, disseminate and take care of people!

J

8a.m. ... Sunday 08/15.... 8 degrees and windy!

Me and the girls at the IBCC race agaisnt the breast cancer... ah... by the way I am the one using mask... kkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.....

Last chemo

Yesterday I did the last session of chemotherapy... hehehe... It last a looooooooooong time! I left home 6am in the morning and only came back at 4.30pm!

But okay.... At least this phase of treatment is over... today I already have one of the effects of treatment... hahaha.... That are the red and hot cheeks.... hahahaha ... But I deal with that with moisturizing... It refreshes and hydrates!

As you can see in the pictures below... I did not lie when he said that I'm huge fat.... kkkkkk... But both the doctor and the nurses said that the swelling will decrease a lot when the strongest effects of Decadron pass... yesssssssss! hehehehe....

In the pictures you can also see that I'm quite comfortable during the applications... I won a VIP bracelet to to enter the room of application.... kkkk.... And the tube through which enters the chemo.

It is also important to drink plenty of water for body recover well.

Anyway... Let’s keeping on walking that it is almost in the end! hehehe...

The Tongue of Chow Chow

Do you know how the Chow Chow’s (dog) tongue looks like? It's blue ...

Well.... Another reaction that the new chemo has been giving me is a tongue that looks like the tongue of these beautiful and cute puppies.... hahahahahahah... Seriously!

About  three days after application and during 4 or 5 days my tongue is swollen and bluish.... hahahahaha.... Okay.... I'm looking like a little old Chow Chow.... because I'm still bald.... hahaha....

The 5th element

When chemotherapy arrived at the 5th session, the chemical used has changed...

From this chemo on I stopped feeling so sick and vomiting... but in return, the risk of allergy increased a lot... So much that I had to take Decadron the day before applicarion, in the day of application and the day after the application.

The application was a little different.... hahaha .... It hurts a little... And I have a funny reaction to the anti-allergic that is applied at the same time as chemo.... I feel unbearable sleepy, but at the same time I feel like stirring... kkkkk..... So I looked like a mad person… Almost sleeping but could not relax enough to sleep.... And I kept walking backwards and forwards in the room... hahahha... Feeling an almost uncontrollable desire to pull needle from my hand.... kkkkk .... it sounds insane… hahahahaha .....

Besides the allergy risk, this chemo also caused a lot of muscle pain.... It is not unbearable, but it hurts each and every one of the muscles of my (now) fat little body..... hahahaha... Now I know where each of the muscles is located and what each one pushes or pulls.... hahaha ...

The good thing is that the hairs are already growing at this stage... still a bit weak... but I’m no longer bald and gleaming white headed.... hahahahaha .....

Another reaction I had with this chemo was that my taste has changed for about a week... Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeverything.... absolutely everything I ate tasted like candy... Even water.... Even salty meat.... hahahhaaha... Can you imagine eating Cheetos, smell the cheese and taste like candy? hahahaha.... ARGH!!! But I think it might one of the best reactions.... Because I've been researching and there are people who feel bitter or metallic taste in the mouth.... so I guess that feeling like candy isn’t that bad, is it? hehehe....

My little fingers, my little fingers... Where are they? Here they are!

I don’t know if you guys know but I have colored fingers.... kkkk ....

When I noticed the finger nails were getting dark, I was worried because no one had told me that this could happen... Then, as always.... I started searching the Internet to see if that was "normal"...

There were some sites that said this might happen... So I waited until the next appointment with the doctor to ask whether this could actually happen.... To my relief, the doctor said that yes, it could happen and that the dark nails would be back to normal after treatment is finished...

It was all that I didn’t want in this life: to be with nails like that for ever, right? hahaha... but okay.... Now I'm used to colored ails.... and they are not all colored... in my case, there are two fingers of my hands and two fingers of my feet.... hahahaha..... everything is very symmetrical.... hahaha.... Look, I put the pictures.... kkkkkkk.....

Ornamental Diving... Hairs

When I started treatment my biggest concern was the hairs... I was pretty mad at myself because I thought it was a great demonstration of weakness... And I never agreed to be weak! But as Karel said (he is my therapist.... I do therapy for some time.... That’s why I am such a happy crazy person... lol) I am a woman... And starting from this principle... It's a normal and expected thing tht I care about my hair... So I accepted that I am a human and female... and normal... hehehe ... or almost normal... lol

As expected, two weeks after the first application of chemotherapy hair began to fall!

The hair fell on flocks.... Enormous wisps! It is unbelievable that a human being has so much hair on the head.... kkkkkk.... It took about 4 days until the thing stopped! The hairs were diving in groups... kkkk... You know, that's show of unity... hehehe ....

When everything has stabilized, there were still remaining a few heroes of the resistance... I asked to cut the longer wires... I was the face (or head) of my grandmother..... kkkkk....

I will not say that this has not impacted... Looking in the mirror and see myself practically bald (I had long hairs, long to the waist... looooong) was very different from anything I had imagined, but was less traumatic than I expected.

Since I knew it would happen, a few weeks before I went with Priscilla to March 25 street (popular shopping street here in SP) and bought several scarves, necklaces and pins to put on the two hats that I had bought from Jacque. It's worth going there! It's a huge variety at very attractive price (about a third part from the mall price).

I started using the accessories on the next week... And can diversify a lot! It is super cool and elegant.... There are times I feel like that Fiat's advertisement baby (the one that says "I am a cat!".... he thinks everyone's looking at him, but are looking at the car).... Because I walk down the street and eeeeeeeeeeeeeeverybody look at me.... hahahahaha.... That’s a shining dream: I am the center of attention wherever I walk.... hahahahahahahha .....

Take a loook at the rice plantation

I took these pictures this week .... The hair is starting to rise ... It is ridiculous ... kkkkkkk .... It looks like a rice plantation! It is just the japa face huh? hahahaha ....